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Pascale Diverlus

What's up everybody? My name is Pascale Diverlus. I am a writer, educator, and founder of Living

Practices Consulting and one half of your hosting team for Speak, Unspoken.

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Rodney Diverlus

What’s up? I am Rodney Diverlus, an artist and change maker with an interest in the most

transformative ideas. So used to being the only person in the room that wasn't that much of an

experience until I came to Canada.

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Pascale Diverlus

Yeah, for sure, for sure, for sure. That was like jarring.

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Rodney Diverlus

In university and you're like the literally the only black person.

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Pascale Diverlus

Yeah. I had like, I know experiences a lot of like black people who don't have a black educator. And

so, they're like in high school. And I'm like, oh.

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Rodney Diverlus

I did not have a black educator.

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Pascale DiverlusAt all? Oh my god.

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Rodney Diverlus

At all actually, at all.

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Pascale Diverlus

Oh no.

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Rodney Diverlus

Last time I had a black educator was in Haiti.

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Pascale Diverlus

No.

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Rodney Diverlus

1,000%. I had white women as teachers all throughout middle school, all throughout high school,

all throughout high school. I had a couple of dudes, and then university was all white women.

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Pascale Diverlus

Damn. I hate to see it.

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Rodney DiverlusYeah, I know, I mean, like, it's just like, I think, like, also, there's a different version of you that gets

created.

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Pascale Diverlus

Absolutely.

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Rodney Diverlus

Because you're like, okay, if you're the. I feel like there's so many different ways I want to go. Some

people are the only and like that. And so, they become territorial.

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Pascale Diverlus

Yeah.

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Rodney Diverlus

Some people are only and just shaping a different version of themselves to navigate that space.

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Pascale Diverlus

Absolutely.

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Rodney Diverlus

While perhaps suppressing their real self. And some people just, like, have carved two different

versions of themselves.

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I'm not gonna hold you. I see a lot of the. I am the only blank in a space in Toronto a lot, and the only

black person in the class so I’m gonna take up their space. Or, like, I'm gonna give you a side eye

when you come in. Like, I definitely see it a lot. I think I got really lucky though.

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Pascale Diverlus

Like, I definitely, had like a lot of support workers. I think to also add, I had a lot of Haitian support

workers growing up in elementary school, yeah (in Florida). Like, they weren't teachers, but they

were like the support, you know, they’re support staff, they were so and so I think I had, I was able to

have that like within a really young age and they were like super kind to us.

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Pascale Diverlus

Like especially kind to little Haitian kids. I had substitute teachers that were black, that were

Haitian even.

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Rodney Diverlus

Well, the conversation that we're just talking about is around support and this concept of

interdependence and I think that very much connects to that, I think.

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Pascale Diverlus

Absolutely.

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Rodney Diverlus

Now, as adults, I feel like so many people who don't have any of those are trying to create that world

that we perhaps missed and did not have as a way of creating more community or better

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Pascale Diverlus

Yeah.

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Rodney Diverlus

It’s work in progress, I guess.

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Pascale Diverlus

This conversation follows some of the gems that Theo dropped on us as what it is to be the only

disabled person in the space, young person who has the experience of being mad and thinking

about what does what do you do with that? Like do you interject? Or you? And I think Theo took it in

a different way because I feel like sometimes, man, when the things come up, sometimes I can be a

little spicy.

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Pascale Diverlus

And I think in talking to Theo. I was reminded how that may be one of very few opportunities for

people to be able to gain access to learn. And I was like, oh.

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Rodney Diverlus

Yeah, there's only an expanded world view in this conversation, which I really appreciated. And

sometimes even those of us who consider ourselves progressive, have limited views, actually. In so

many different ways, even within our progressive spaces, we have a limited capacity for expanded.

And I felt like the conversation was expansive. I think what I also take away from it is this reality that

like, whether or not what we're just talking about being the only one, that sense of like being singled

out or whatnot, whether or not you experience it as a child or not, like you're throughout our lives,

we're gonna have experiences that bother us.

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Pascale DiverlusWe were able to have a really thought provoking and really transformative conversation with a very

special guest. Theodore Walker Robinson is our black, low vision, hard of hearing, non-binary

singer, artist and executive arts administrator.

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Rodney Diverlus

Why you say it like that? You say black?

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Rodney Diverlus

And then in the conversation, we address mad and courage justice. We ask ourselves; how do we

challenge the mental health sector to make space for disabled, neurodivergent, blind, deaf and

autistic individuals? And how do we build futures that are led by disabled, mad and deaf

individuals?

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Pascale Diverlus

This episode and Speak, Unspoken is brought to you by Across Boundaries with support from

Ontario Health. We hope you enjoy it.

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Rodney Diverlus

Hi, Theo.

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Theodore Walker Robinson

Hi.

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Rodney DiverlusWe're just going to jump right in. Theo, for our audience at home, could you describe to us what is

the disability justice or mad justice movements? And how do they differ from the disability rights

movement?

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Theodore Walker Robinson

Great question. Now, I have to preface this by saying I am no formalized scholar when it comes to

disability justice. I've been so much involved in doing the work itself. So I definitely define disability

justice as a verb. It is the constant work, the constant doing, of manifesting the reality that disabled

folks, that mad folks are inherently sovereign, valuable beings.

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Theodore Walker Robinson

And it's the constant working out of that reality in our current world, in our current society. You

know, we're kind of in a place where our world is very disabling. It's very maddening in ways and

circumstances around us cause there to be, instances of injustice. And so, I define disability justice

as doing the work of showing the example that people who are disabled, people who are mad

identified, are inherently valuable, are worthy of inclusion, and are worthy of surviving not just

surviving, but also thriving, of reaching their highest potential, whatever that means, in a self-

determined way.

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Theodore Walker Robinson

And, you know, helping people to realize that reality and bring that reality to fruition. Justice work is

very much a process of becoming and a process of bringing the future and ushering in the future,

that we envision and that vision is heavily focused on just seeing ourselves, envisioning ourselves

as valuable as inherently worthy of being fully included in our society, and being able to reach our

fullest potential, whatever that means, in ways that we self-determined.

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Theodore Walker Robinson

And self-determination is something that is really big for me in my own personal practice of

disability justice work and how I approach mentoring folks, I'm always trying to help people realize

that they can determine what success or thriving or survival and all of these things mean for them,

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Theodore Walker Robinson

So yeah, I see disability justice as a, as a verb. It's it's something that's constantly being done. It's

it's a work that, I don't know, ever gets completed because, you know, I don't really see a terminal

end to it necessarily because, you know, as we moved through history on this giant ball that's flying

through space, things are always changing in society as well.

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Theodore Walker Robinson

And so, we have to be constantly on our toes to continue doing that work. As much as we continue

to breathe and continue to be in relationship with one another. And as things are always shifting

and changing in our social and political climate. So yeah, I see it as just constantly doing the work,

constantly putting in motion the work of our embodied nature as, you know, beings worthy of

survival and thriving and success as determined by, our own words, our own, our own, you know,

words that come out of our own mouth as we describe for ourselves.

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Pascale Diverlus

Yeah. I really appreciate that. There are a couple of things there. You know, I really like the

perspective of thinking about the fact that our world inherently is maddening. It is disabling. There

are conditions that are far beyond us and exasperate conditions that we may already have or we

don't have. You describe and talk about yourself as being someone who has been doing the work,

and so in doing the work for quite a long time, what shifts have you been seeing happen within our

society at large, but also within our communities, whether that be black communities or

communities with disabilities?

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Pascale Diverlus

What shifts have you seen happen in your time, and then further, what shifts need to still happen?

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Theodore Walker RobinsonYeah, I mean, I've seen shifts in so many different ways and different levels, you know, from a

personal level from, you know, political, a little social, organizational light in the ways I've acted in

my communities have been in different capacities. And so I see shifts happening in many ways

progressive shifts, regressive shifts. I mean, myself, I mean, I started doing this work from a very

young age.

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Theodore Walker Robinson

I mean, I was born disabled. I was born with a congenital condition, two congenital conditions, that,

impair my sight and my hearing. And, also, you know, as I enter my adult stages, you know, getting

certain diagnoses in terms of my mental health as well, so that I've created barriers for me and, you

know, shifts that I've seen have happened not just on a personal level from my own self advocacy,

but also from a political lens as well.

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Theodore Walker Robinson

I mean, I spend some time in my life in politics. I run in a federal election in 2021, and even just

being in a role like that as a political candidate was in and of itself, doing disability justice work

because there were so few people who put their necks out. So, you know, to, you know, put

themselves literally in a bullpen of, you know, cis white hat guys, straight guys, you know, in political

debates and also being very hyper visible as a black, trans, disabled individual, you know, and so

even just being visible in and of itself, me being visible, me showing up every day to work, showing

up to teaching my art

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Theodore Walker Robinson

classes are me showing up to do my artistic practice, you know, is creating a shift with, you know,

the very by the very means of me being present. That's one shift that I can see, and that's one shift

that I intend to keep doing until the day that I die. As long as I keep showing up, there's going to be a

shift happening.

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Theodore Walker Robinson

And I'm known to be a bit of an agitator of sorts, because no matter where I show up, something is

going to change. Because a lot of times people especially, I don't know, normies, you know, areinvolved in these, people of the colonial project. Don't expect folks like me to be, present or hyper

visible or hyper vocal and, you know, hyper agitated and all of these things.

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Theodore Walker Robinson

And so, I mean, I just I'm doing a residency right now in Banff Alberta, the Banff Center for Arts and

Creativity, and it's like me just showing up. The faculty there are just like, we've never had a blind

person on campus. Like, you need to help us, to help us, you know, make this campus more

accessible for you because now you've shown up, there's going to be another person to show up

after because, you know, by the nature of you just, you know, being present in the space that you're

in.

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Theodore Walker Robinson

And that's something that I find happens everywhere I go. And like school and university, going

through grad school, you know, going to work in the banking industry. At one point, I used to be a

financier, but, you know, like everywhere I show up, it's there's going to be some kind of shift

happening because my position in life, my ontology, my way of being is, I won't say oppositional, but

it will create some disturbances and how the status quo has been maintained for a certain amount

of time.

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Theodore Walker Robinson

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Pascale Diverlus

Absolutely. And if I could just jump in on that, because I feel like, you know, many of us could

probably empathize with, in different ways, being the first of someone. Right? Being like, oh, you're

the first person in this role or the first time we're experiencing you or so forth. And so how do you

interact with institutions that are then telling you you're the first disabled person or the first blind

person that we're encountering?

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Pascale DiverlusDo you, you know, place the shame back on them? Do you question why that you are the first? Like

what is your way of interacting with those statements? Come up.

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Theodore Walker Robinson

As much as I it's a complicated feeling that I have about that because sometimes I'm just like,

really? You've never met a disabled person before? I mean, I'm from Toronto, so I mean, it's a very

dense population with a lot of different kinds of people. And then, you know, I come to a, you know,

a place like the Banff Center and, you know, maybe the diversity isn't as widely spread.

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Theodore Walker Robinson

And so, I have to kind of like put my head in the context of where I am. And I'll be harder on some

than other people, like in if I were in Toronto, I'd be a little harder on folks if they, you know, didn't

have certain things in place just because in Ontario we have legislations and things about

accessibility for Ontario.

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Theodore Walker Robinson

And in Alberta things are a little bit different or, you know, different workplaces or organizations

have different rules around certain things. But how do I how do I approach it? I mean, like I like to

keep conversations going instead of shutting them down. I mean, I can easily just shame folks and

get upset and walk out of the room and say, I'll never work with you again, you know?

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Theodore Walker Robinson

But I, I feel like that isn't ever productive, and it really doesn't make any shift happen. And it'll close

people off. If I reacted in such a way to actually doing the work of disability justice. And so, in order

for, for me to sort of influence some kind of change or shift, you know, my approach is really to keep

the conversation going and really ask them, get curious about their experiences, too, you know, like,

let's understand why this is a thing.

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Theodore Walker RobinsonWhy have you not experienced folks like me before? Or why in this day and age, you know, we

haven't heard about access procedures and you know how to work with employees with

disabilities, for example. And so, yeah, I like to keep the conversation going and really just I do a lot

of consulting. So I do I take a consultative approach, you know, just providing advice based on my

own lived experience, based on legislation that's available, providing resources, really to equip

people with as much information as possible to help them become informed so that they don't

make any social faux pas again and sometimes again, like there are some people who just they've

never

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Theodore Walker Robinson

met a disabled person before and they don't know how to, you know, talk to us like a normal adult at

times, you know, people want to tiptoe around due disability and use certain euphemisms to get at

a certain thing. Or, you know, like when talking about race, about how sometimes white folks use

euphemisms to talk about the color.

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Rodney Diverlus

They are afraid of saying black.

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Pascale Diverlus

Yeah. Afraid of saying black.

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Theodore Walker Robinson

You know, like, you know, we've never seen anyone with your needs before. You know, things like

that. And so, it's, you know, trying to decompose, not necessarily deconstruct, but also to just kind

of deconstruct to a point, to the point where I can build things up again and not just leave it

completely blown up and deconstructed.

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Theodore Walker RobinsonBecause I like to leave things better than when I first walk in. So, you know, taking a consultative

approach and then, you know, giving them my lived experience. And how did this situation make me

feel and how could change this situation for the next person who's to come after me?

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Rodney Diverlus

Yeah. I think that one of the things that you mentioned earlier around self-determination, it's what

comes up for me and, and my disabled friends have always talked about this, this almost

paternalistic dynamic that exists with non-disabled people in which it's simultaneously walking on

eggshells, like you mentioned this, like, I don't want to offend. And as Canadians it's our

sensibilities do not do we want to we want to do well and we don't want to offend while

simultaneously also not allowing space for people to have self-determination.

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Rodney Diverlus

And I'm I'm curious if that's been your experience, if that's been your part of your experience and

and what ways have you have you experienced sort of working through with non-disabled people to

move beyond that, to actually get to the part of justice?

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Theodore Walker Robinson

Yeah. And it takes a lot of communication and just open, honest communication. Being real with

each other. Like, I really, I'm not the kind of person to beat around the bush when it comes to thing,

and I'm pretty direct a lot of the times about what I need and what my needs are and like what the

barriers are.

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Theodore Walker Robinson

And I'm really and I guess that's a part of my management style. You know, I, I like to seek out the

barriers and then kind of attack them head on and just approach them or opening up front and, but

also do it in a loving, corrective kind of way. I just finished reading Loving Corrections by Adrienne

Maree Brown.

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And, you know, it's about like, how do we be in right relationship with one another when I approach

someone and they're wanting to know more and they're expressing that they want to know more

about disability and including people who are like me. You know, I really take that as a, you know,

fertile ground to build a relationship and to, you know, be in right relationship.

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Theodore Walker Robinson

And I see that as someone wanting to be in right relationship, they may not approach it maybe in a

way that, you know, I would prefer, you know, but, you know, it's new for them. And so I, I really try to

try to, you know, see it from that, their perspective and just, you know, approach it from a caring

kind of way because it's also my responsibility to not leave that person the same way I found them.

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Theodore Walker Robinson

And that's just my own philosophy. And so, you know, how can I use my experience to make sure

that they change after I leave that, you know, and so and just giving them that opportunity to have

that intimate encounter with disability to that's memorable for them and that makes them want to

continue to do the work and to find out more and to kind of leave them with this insatiable you

know, wanting to know more, making this revolution irresistible, like, oh, you know, like having

because, you know, if the experience is bad and I just walk away and throw my hands up and say,

and I don't want to work with you ever again.

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Theodore Walker Robinson

You know, like, it just that doesn't make the revolution irresistible, you know, it makes them think,

well, I guess it doesn't matter then. I was not changed by this encounter. Therefore, why should I

change or continue on or be different? Do better, be better.

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Rodney Diverlus

Absolutely. It feels like it's a combination of challenging people, but also bringing them along, and

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Pascale Diverlus

I think it's such a loving way of being right. And I think there's such a kind way of kind of offering

other folks to understand, to understand better this kind of change in the hope that, like, we all

need it. Also, this conversation around self-determination really has me thinking about the fact

that, you know, between climate change, war, aging, many of us will experience or encounter

disability in our lifetimes.

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Pascale Diverlus

How is it that we can build futures and possibilities that allow us to maintain our self-determination

and maintain our autonomy, maintain our dignity and maintain our care?

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Theodore Walker Robinson

Yeah, absolutely. And I really like to frame things for folks in this way, we're all, if we already do not

have or do not come into this world with some kind of disability or difference in body or mind, we're

all temporarily abled, you know, we're all temporarily abled. And that's the way I like to frame things

for people.

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Theodore Walker Robinson

And it's like, if you are alive, if you are aging and you know you are going to experience some kind of

change in your body that will cause it to function in different ways. It could be a political situation; it

could be aging. Your eyesight goes. Everyone in your family starts losing their hearing after a certain

age, you know?

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Theodore Walker Robinson

So I really like to frame it as like disability is the most normal thing that happens as even as bodies

change, bodies be bodying, you know, over, over time and, you know, and that really helps to like,

really shake things up in people's minds because people tend to think that disabled folks are like

over there and it can never happen to them, or they're just different.00;21;32;20 - 00;22;10;01

Theodore Walker Robinson

They are. And because of the language we've built up over the times, especially in the disability

justice movement, as it's progressed over time, you know, people have started to use language like

special, special needs, special accommodations. So they create this like, I don't know, separation

between disabled folks and non-disabled folks. That actually doesn't really exist. Like we're all, you

know, kind of moving towards some form of disability or, you know, differentiation in our abilities

over time, just by nature of being alive, being organisms that change, being biological creatures.

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Theodore Walker Robinson

And so, I really like to frame things different for people in that way. And especially like, you know, in

political situations where there's a lot of war and things can change quickly and people will become

injured. You know, I've noticed a lot of folks have been immigrating to Canada in the past five years,

especially from the African continent, and a lot of them are coming, and also from Syria as well.

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Theodore Walker Robinson

And a lot of folks are coming here blinded or low vision. Major life changes happen, result of

political and social situations. And, you know, it's just that we have to kind of remove that block for

us, that mental block, that disabled disability is something that happens to other people or it exists

separately, like it's all something that exists within humanity, within being a human.

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Rodney Diverlus

I relate to this. So, on a personal level, you know, as a as a movement artist, I've always wondered

the, contradictions that existed within my practice. Whereas, for example, in the dance spaces,

typically very ablest and sort of creates an unrealistic, desire for this quote unquote peak physical

form, while the very people who are practitioners of this know deeply and intimately what happens

with our bodies.

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Rodney DiverlusAnd so people who have lived with chronic health issues since they were teenagers, just from the

the farm itself, people who are who themselves are experiencing a disabling experience, whose

facility is constantly morphing. And you're right, there is a sort of a cognitive dissonance in which

you think it's over there. While you yourself are recognizing that the corporeal realities of this body

that we're hosting temporarily is changing, is rapidly evolving as well.

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Theodore Walker Robinson

Yeah, exactly. I mean, think of it as a dancer. I mean, your knees ain't going to be 20 years old for

your whole life.

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Rodney Diverlus

No, they're not, they're not even now, I mean, you know, and I'm and I'm just turning 35 and that's 5

years from 30 to 35. It's all we talk about in our community. It's like, oh, I can't bend, I can't do that. I

have to accommodate myself by doing x, y, z.

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Pascale Diverlus

And I think it's interesting the kind of context you also added into with adding how people use the

language of special, because I bet in the spaces that you are in, in dancing and when we're talking

about like physical abilities, the conversation isn't around special then. And so it becomes around,

you know, disabilities. I folks may not see necessarily, or neurological disabilities, things of that

nature that gets like really kind of boiled down to this word that I think is one that is important to

criticize and really like, understand.

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Pascale Diverlus

Why is that the language that we use? I think the other thing that you're talking about is very clear,

even just with that word shift of special, do they use the word special in this way? The dance spaces

that you're in?

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Rodney DiverlusThey don’t. No, no, no, because it's it's almost pedestrianized the opposite way where we're in

denial in the formal space. So it's like, yeah, I can do it, I can do it. Yeah, I can do it. And so there are

people who will actually take on things that further contributes to their disabling. So I will give you

an example for myself.

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Rodney Diverlus

There was when I was in Calgary dancing for a company, I had some knee issues and, there was a

show in which I had, I was a feature role, and they, we do this thing called Media Call where their

photographers come, and they'll take one photo. They'll try to capture a moment from the show to

kind of use as an attachment to the way they write about the show.

00;25;50;23 - 00;26;12;18

Rodney Diverlus

And so the example that they wanted to go was part of my solo, in which I jump off of this table with

this, like it was a puppet show with this puppet, big puppet. And I jump up and down and I go, and

the photographers and my bosses and everybody was there, and I was so excited that that was the

moment that it was going to be, and for lack of better words in the newspaper about it.

00;26;12;20 - 00;26;20;14

Rodney Diverlus

And I jumped off that table. I cannot tell you at least 30 times. And it was a really high table. It was

like a big prop.

00;26;20;17 - 00;26;21;05

Pascale Diverlus

Oh my goodness.

00;26;21;05 - 00;26;42;19

Rodney Diverlus

Eight feet tall. Yeah, maybe 30 times now. My ego made me want to keep doing it, but my body was

saying, girl, what's up with what you're doing, what you do? And so I'm actively engaged and and theweathering of my knees and, the space was not your specialty. It is not that it's an an enable. It's an

inherently a bit of space.

00;26;42;19 - 00;26;59;27

Rodney Diverlus

And this is what I've learned in many ways, is an inherently ableist space. You're not seen as

special, you're seen as having to keep going on. And, yeah, I'm very curious from your perspective,

Theo, as an art maker as well? So for those of you who are listening, Theo is a beautiful, very

talented artist, vocalist, musician, pianist.

00;26;59;27 - 00;27;14;02

Rodney Diverlus

And a visual artist. I, I'm sure many more. I'm curious, from your perspective as a practitioner of

mediums and forms, what has been your experience navigating sort of traditional arts forms or

traditional practices?

00;27;14;04 - 00;27;40;27

Theodore Walker Robinson

Yeah. As you said, like I've been an artist all my life and I think as a disabled person, disability is

inherently creative because we're always trying to find ways to get stuff done and get through our

daily lives, like ask anybody. Like we're all we've all all disabled folks have some kind of life hack or

all kinds of hacks to to get through their days and, you know, make themselves feel supported.

00;27;40;29 - 00;28;01;11

Theodore Walker Robinson

But, in my creative practice, my artistic practice, I really like to push the boundaries of what people

think I can do or what my body can, or what people think my body can do. And I think that just came

from like being really sheltered as a kid and, you know, parents, Caribbean parents trying to like,

shelter this disabled kid from doing things.

00;28;01;11 - 00;28;16;21

Theodore Walker RobinsonSo I got to know a lot. And so I'd be like, well, I'm going to do it anyway. But, in terms of visual art,

like visual arts is one of the things that like I was told that I may not be able to do because I don't

see like everyone else, I don't have perfect visual acuity, whatever that means.

00;28;16;21 - 00;28;41;16

Theodore Walker Robinson

I mean, I like to think of my own visual acuity is perfect for me. That's how I was born. I don't know

any different is perfect, you know? And so, venturing into visual art has been a really interesting

thing for me because as a low vision person who has less than 10% visual acuity and on top of that,

an eye movement disorder, a lot of people are like, really?

00;28;41;16 - 00;29;07;06

Theodore Walker Robinson

It's just so interesting to see the kinds of limitations people will put on me and my art. And, and I

really took this up when I started painting during the pandemic. Like I thought, you know, how cool

would it be if I started painting? Because I was all like in this whole, like, rant and rave against OCAD

University because they had this whole ban against admitting blind students into their visual arts

programs, because they had this idea, you know, no, it's a thing.

00;29;07;06 - 00;29;33;17

Theodore Walker Robinson

And I I'm pretty sure they still don't really or they're very hesitant to admit blind or low vision

students. And it's so funny because I have like a blind friend who's a comic book artist, and his

drawings are like better than a lot of sighted folks I see. So but, you know, just to see what the mind

can do, like, it's like my mind isn't blind, so I can still create visions and put them out in the world

and manifest them in material ways.

00;29;33;19 - 00;30;11;03

Theodore Walker Robinson

But for example, I mean, I did this painting series of abstract paintings. It's a series of paintings that

I did using my white cane, a cane that I use for mobility. And it's about chest height, and I use it as a

paintbrush, basically to create an abstract painting just to sort of show a representation of what

abstraction looks like to me and from my own perspective, from my own visual acuity or my position

of visual acuity, and to sort of challenge the ways in which people like to put limitations on how low

vision people can participate in visual art.00;30;11;06 - 00;30;33;09

Theodore Walker Robinson

Yeah. And so I, I like to use different media to sort of experiment with that and how visual art

necessarily doesn't just serve the purpose of being visual, like it also has function as well. Visual art

has a lot of function as well. I like to play with function in terms of visual art, especially when

working with ceramics or tactile art.

00;30;33;11 - 00;30;52;26

Theodore Walker Robinson

A lot of people, when they see a sculpture, they think, oh, it's this beautiful thing that looks

beautiful, but also it's this tactile object that you put in the world that has sensory information when

you touch and feel it. So it doesn't just serve the purpose of being visual, but it also has the, you

know, the function of being tactile and giving information about the world around you.

00;30;52;26 - 00;31;15;24

Theodore Walker Robinson

And so I like to sort of, you know, show people that there's, you know, multiple functions of, of

different media and especially visual art. And I just really want to just dispel the myths that visual

art is all about beautification and about the eye and what it can see, and that it also serves a

purpose and function in, in our daily lives as well.

00;31;16;02 - 00;31;34;22

Rodney Diverlus

I love this, I love this, I really do, and I mean, I think one of the things that I think I relate to you on is

that you both exist within the artistic spheres, but also within the sort of traditional as a consultant

to support organizations to be better. And one of our audiences is for this work is going to be the

mental health sector.

00;31;34;22 - 00;32;00;16

Rodney Diverlus

And I am really, really, really curious to hear your perspective on how you can that sector and as an

organization, for lack of better words, be better and do better. And I'm really curious specifically if

you can articulate the relationship between the mental health sector and their sort of aims andmad and disability justice and how those might those aims might either work together or be

oppositional to each other.

00;32;00;19 - 00;32;08;27

Theodore Walker Robinson

Yeah. I mean, the mental health industrial complex.

00;32;09;00 - 00;32;30;15

Theodore Walker Robinson

Complex very much so a complex. And I think we're like we're still even trying to understand what

mental health is like. Psychiatrist are still trying to understand the brain. We don't even know how

half of these medications even work. We don't know anything about the brain. So it's like, I don't

know how people can be so sure about certain things in the mental health space.

00;32;30;15 - 00;32;51;12

Theodore Walker Robinson

And I think there needs to be an understanding that there's so much unexplored grounds here in

what we're working with when it comes to mental health, and also when it comes to understanding

each other. I mean, even just from a varying from culture to culture. I mean, mental health is a

different it's seen in such so many different ways.

00;32;51;12 - 00;33;19;24

Theodore Walker Robinson

I mean, there's so many differences in West African cultures and Western cultures and what we

consider mental health. And for example, I mean, like in certain tribal cultures, there's a

shamanistic practice where people feel like they're taking on spirits of ancestors or receiving

visitations or being, you know, they have they experience a consciousness of, a certain deity or an

embodiment of a certain deity or, you know, things like that.

00;33;19;24 - 00;33;42;21

Theodore Walker Robinson

And Western culture is sort of pathologized those erroneously for many, many years. And it still

happens where, you know, they're calling a lot of folks who have these cultural experiences andidiosyncrasies as mad as you know. And really, if you just go back home, people are like, no, they

just talk to the ancestors. It's no big deal. Pay no mind.

00;33;42;23 - 00;33;45;27

Rodney Diverlus

That's just uncle person. That's just aunt this.

00;33;45;29 - 00;34;14;28

Theodore Walker Robinson

Exactly, exactly. And I think there's so much we have to learn from understanding each other as a

global community. And I think Western medicine also, when it comes to treating mental health,

needs to take a step back to kind of look at the person as a whole instead of this disease brain kind

of thing. I think they need to really understand what culturally relevant care actually means.

00;34;14;28 - 00;35;06;09

Theodore Walker Robinson

I mean, my experience with the mental health system, a lot of black folks get diagnosed with the

same disorder. The same is the same labels. They get always slapped with the term oppositional

defiant, when really we've been for 400 plus years fighting against systemic oppression. But you

know, the DSM-5 wants to call it oppositional defiant or, you know, so all of these things that are so

wrapped up in our really fraught histories with oppressions and societal oppression and, and white

supremacy and the colonial project, like, all of those things, Western medicine really needs to take

a step back and just look at it and start deconstructing it and rebuilding it from a

00;35;06;09 - 00;35;40;16

Theodore Walker Robinson

cultural level and also social perspective, understanding where people are actually coming from

and understanding the harm that's been done by the medical industrial complex for so, so very

long. I mean, it wasn't too long ago that we were doing lobotomies on people, and it's like now our

treatments have come so far where, you know, we're starting to understand the impact that talk

therapy can have, having a social connection, that how that can have an impact on mental health,

how certain types of psychotherapies have an impact on people.

00;35;40;16 - 00;36;12;07Theodore Walker Robinson

And so, you know, we're always learning more. And I think we can't or we shouldn't get too proud in

where we are with the mental health industrial complex, because there's so much to learn and

there's so much to be discovered from one another and from each other. And I think also what

needs to change within the mental health industry is that mad folks need to be seen as sovereign

individuals, as people who can be trusted, as people who have agency, as people who have

inherent value.

00;36;12;13 - 00;36;32;20

Theodore Walker Robinson

I mean, like, we have this practice in Western medicine of just locking people away in psych ward

still. I mean, it's not what it used to be, but there's still this disbelief that we need to put people in a

locked ward or, you know, you know, in a, a unit in a hospital where they can't see their friends or

family and separate them.

00;36;32;23 - 00;36;57;05

Theodore Walker Robinson

It's like a form of banishment when, you know, we now know, especially when in terms of what we

know about trauma and healing, is that healing from a lot of things happens best in community

communities when we're with our family is when we're with our partners. I think there's a lot that

can be done between partnering with community and medicine.

00;36;57;05 - 00;37;32;14

Theodore Walker Robinson

I think they can work together in ways that they haven't done before, because the constant revolving

door of putting people in the hospital all forming them and all these things and, you know, giving

them like literally a mental health record, it's like a criminal record in many ways. There's so many

parallels there just to be deconstructed there. I think there's a lot of opportunity for us to bring

social aspects of healing and culturally relevant aspects of healing into the medical world, to help

support people who have just different needs when it comes to their mental well-being.

00;37;32;16 - 00;38;03;22

Rodney Diverlus

And the word healing and the word healing. I feel like these sectors and these complexes use the

word healing as a euphemism for what they see as fixing. And so it's like there isn't space for thatnuance for that. It's that we have these benchmarks, and we want you to hit these benchmarks or

reach this, this imaginary line that we've created so we can go and continue getting our grant and

our funding, but not actually thinking about what is it that you as individual need separating you

from your community, etc., etc..

00;38;04;04 - 00;38;33;18

Theodore Walker Robinson

Yeah. And I think that's where self-determination really needs to come in here. We need to see

people as able to self determine their own goals and decide what their functional means to them.

What does I mean? Let people set their own goals for how they want to approach mental health, for

example. I mean, maybe instead of, you know, expecting someone to reach a certain level that is

very low of a certain level of functionality, that is very capitalistic.

00;38;33;18 - 00;39;03;12

Theodore Walker Robinson

And, you know, we want to get you to a point where you can work a 9 to 5 job and, you know, you

know, suppress your bipolar disorder and you know, all the things that make you, you know, instead

of making that the benchmark, you know, make it something that's, that's defined by the individual,

rather, that's the, you know, again, it's capitalism has a huge part to play in how, the medical

industrial complex thinks people should heal or get fixed when they come in contact with them.

00;39;03;14 - 00;39;05;11

Pascale Diverlus

Right. Those are not synonymous.

00;39;05;13 - 00;39;06;19

Theodore Walker Robinson

Yeah. They're not.

00;39;06;21 - 00;39;26;22

Pascale Diverlus

They're not synonymous things. I think it's also why I really appreciate it. Like, Sonny's, framing

around it very intentionally saying that there are disabled people in our future. And I think that even,you know, as someone who does a lot of activism and community organizing, understanding the

ways that we have to think about a future, that also means that there are disabled people here as

well.

00;39;26;27 - 00;39;51;11

Pascale Diverlus

And in revolutionary world, in this utopia, whatever that looks like that we're building, there are

disabled people there as well. And so our understanding of this needs to expand. Now, if our futures

are actually trying to hold us on, there is, you know, to repeat what you said Theo, there is so much

to understand about each other. But I see a lot of organization really do the work of understanding

each other, of empathy, of access.

00;39;51;11 - 00;40;24;17

Pascale Diverlus

They really boil that down to dollar signs. They assign money to the work of understanding each

other and value to the work of empathy and access and so forth. And so, from, you know, you're an

art practitioner, but you also work within arts institutions to help, you know, bring access and

conversations, more practically, to the organizations. And so, from your vantage point, how do you

make sure that issues and discussions around access and disability are not sidelined when there is

no institutional or monetary will?

00;40;24;20 - 00;40;43;13

Theodore Walker Robinson

Yeah, it's such a hard thing, especially when it comes down to budgets. And like especially

organizations, all they want to talk about is budget. All they want to talk about is how much access

costs, how everyone wants to talk about how expensive disabled folks are and how they are tax on

the system and how everybody's on the dole and blah, blah, blah, blah, blah.

00;40;43;15 - 00;41;10;09

Theodore Walker Robinson

All the things. And I think we need to really just shift the way we think about disability and think

about reshape the way we think about accommodating. And we have to think about access as

something that is an investment in our future. It's not an expense. It's basically allowing people to

be at their fullest potential, to have the tools they need to be reach their fullest potential.00;41;10;09 - 00;41;31;04

Theodore Walker Robinson

And I just and my ideas are quite radical in ways in that a disability and access are not to be

relegated to the last budget item line. You know, it's like, okay, we got this leftover money after we

paid rent, after we paid salary after movie though. Right now, access 500 bucks. Great. Okay. What

are we going to do with that?

00;41;31;06 - 00;41;56;24

Theodore Walker Robinson

I mean, we need to start with and this is how I do my budgets personally. Like when I'm doing like

when I'm trying to cut up the pie. Basically, I like I start with people before I start looking at quote

unquote capital or whatever. Like things are other things I need to be pay for. I look at who's on my

team, I look at the people in front of me.

00;41;56;24 - 00;42;23;17

Theodore Walker Robinson

What do they need in order to be at their best? Because whatever equips them to be at their best is

going to be the greatest investment that'll help us as a community get to where we essentially need

to be. And if that means a shift in the goals of the organization, then so be it. I think, you know, if we

all are at our best, then we will be doing our best and what we output into the community is going to

be the best.

00;42;23;17 - 00;42;52;22

Theodore Walker Robinson

And I think those those things need to be self-determined again as well. And I really like to start with

the people in front of me and what their needs are and start from the people upwards, you know, so

to speak, in terms of building an organization, because at the end of the day, like your people and

again, like, I hate using these kinds of languages, but I guess in my experience as a business person,

like I really see people as your true assets like these are this is your true value.

00;42;52;22 - 00;43;19;04

Theodore Walker Robinson

Everything else, the building that doesn't matter, like the computer expense, that doesn't matter.

The people you have in front of you, the these are your real. This is your real capital. This is your realasset. Because at the end of the day, that community, that social imprint is what's going to be left

behind. No one's going to remember, like, you know, one administrative expense that was on a

budget line from the fiscal year beforehand.

00;43;19;04 - 00;43;40;28

Theodore Walker Robinson

People are going to remember the people in front of them and the impact that they have. So, you

know, I really start with people and work from there and then, you know, build out a budget or build

out goals or a strategic plan from that perspective. Because I see people, I see their potential as an

investment. And ultimately I'm just interested in people's potential, like people reaching their

potential.

00;43;40;28 - 00;43;45;12

Theodore Walker Robinson

And so, I see access as just a way to help people get there.

00;43;45;14 - 00;43;53;29

Pascale Diverlus

Absolutely, absolutely. You hear that organizations that are trying to sideline us with money

potential, like actually invest into us. Let's see.

00;43;53;29 - 00;43;59;27

Theodore Walker Robinson

A future. Well, I mean, like everyone says, access is expensive, but it's like, well, humans, we're

expensive.

00;43;59;27 - 00;44;01;01

Pascale Diverlus

Expensive.

00;44;01;01 - 00;44;11;25

Theodore Walker RobinsonKnow, like have needs to, you know, be equipped with the tools we need to get work done. And and

so why not invest in people? You know.

00;44;11;27 - 00;44;32;18

Pascale Diverlus

That's such a lazy response to like, when I hear that, I'm like, oh, there's no creativity here. Even,

like, we can't even actually think outside of any boxes because we are just so stagnant in our

understanding of where money needs to be allocated and so forth, that people become at the very

bottom of our priority list. And then you can feel that.

00;44;32;18 - 00;44;46;15

Pascale Diverlus

And then organizations to everyone across the board, whether they have it or not, can feel that.

Yeah, absolutely.

00;44;46;18 - 00;45;12;06

Rodney Diverlus

I'm very curious actually, if we can take it, we're going to take a little bit of a segue. And really, one of

the things that I found in my experience doing activism against state sanctioned violence and this

community is just the sheer amount of individuals that are that have experienced violence from the

state who also, experienced a lack of care and were in many ways and experiencing crisises.

00;45;12;06 - 00;45;38;15

Rodney Diverlus

And so folks like Andrew Loku, who was a South Sudanese man that was killed by police in 2015,

Ejaz Chaudhry, even dating back to Lester Donaldson in 1988. There were all black and racialized

people that were experiencing at the time. At the time they're experiencing, they're in crisis and also

had other forms of disabilities, and their lives were not seen valuable and were were taken.

00;45;38;15 - 00;46;03;15

Rodney Diverlus

And they had they were fatal victims of police violence. And this all this thing, all that we're talking

about. And it's at its most extreme. And on physical violence, these sort of institutional violence,sort of intellectual violence, all the different ways that that we don't see value. And, certain

individuals, when you then give the state the power to police individuals, that mindset on the

extreme ends up taking lives.

00;46;03;15 - 00;46;19;06

Rodney Diverlus

That were too precious to be lost. And I'm curious if you can speak on that, if you can, if you have

any thoughts on on that connection and, and what can non-disabled and non mad folks know

about the violence that that the state impacts on mad and disabled individuals.

00;46;19;08 - 00;46;43;17

Theodore Walker Robinson

Yeah. I mean our bodies are always, our society is always launching some war against the bodies of

disabled people and against mad people, against racialized people and against people who have all

of these things intersecting, like myself. I mean, one of those names you read that really sticks out

to me, is Ejaz Chaudhry, because he was from Mississauga.

00;46;43;17 - 00;47;09;08

Theodore Walker Robinson

I'm from Mississauga. I distinctly remember that day when it happened because he was around the

exact same time that something very similar happened to me with Peel Regional Police. I was

having literally my darkest hour. I walked to my doctor's office because I had no other means and,

you know, I’ve exhausted all my avenues walked to my doctor's office for support.

00;47;09;11 - 00;47;41;29

Theodore Walker Robinson

He erroneously calls the police. My doctor is racialized as well, but the police come. But instead of

just sending, like, you know, one person to escort me to the hospital, which was essentially what

they should have done. They sent like ten police cars, ten police cars to my doctor's office. And

there was this. Yeah, exactly. And there was one police officer that stood there arguing with my

doctor about whether or not they should take me to the hospital because, I was sitting crying in a

corner, suicidal.

00;47;42;06 - 00;47;52;17Theodore Walker Robinson

And the head police officer says I don't feel safe with that person in the room. I don't feel safe going

in there. And then when you just.

00;47;52;19 - 00;47;53;19

Rodney Diverlus

They don't feel safe.

00;47;53;21 - 00;47;55;10

Theodore Walker Robinson

Yeah, they don't feel safe.

00;47;55;13 - 00;47;56;14

Pascale Diverlus

All of the weapons on.

00;47;56;16 - 00;48;25;25

Theodore Walker Robinson

You take that snapshot. Take that snapshot. The police officer is prioritizing their safety when

they've got like, 20 other guys behind them, you know, and they were called to my doctor's office to

do a specific job. And that was take me to the hospital so that I can receive medical care. My doctor

had to argue with them that that they could that, you know, that it's their job to take me to the

hospital like, this is, what are you doing?

00;48;25;25 - 00;48;45;21

Theodore Walker Robinson

And, you know, that was again like, I not that I feel regional police owes me a lot of money for my

hospital bills right now. That I am still paying because, to get the, the care I needed to to actually

heal from that. But that also emboldened me to act a lot more in terms of my, my work in, in

disability justice.

00;48;45;21 - 00;49;08;11Theodore Walker Robinson

And I specifically remember that day, like marching for Ejaz Chaudhry. You know, the Region of Peel

was up in arms about it, especially racialized community, because God forbid, were mad in public.

You know, we're having a bad day. And, you know, things are you know, we've exhausted all

avenues. And yet when we call for help, our bodies are still criminalized.

00;49;08;12 - 00;49;23;27

Theodore Walker Robinson

They are, you know, seen as threats, even though there's a whole army called for one person. And

and again, like, I still every single day I think about this, I still think about how I easily could have

been Ejaz Chaudhry, easily.

00;49;24;02 - 00;49;25;01

Pascale Diverlus

Absolutely.

00;49;25;03 - 00;49;38;25

Theodore Walker Robinson

If I wasn't sitting in a corner crying over this whole situation and like if I, I don't know who's manic

and overly talking and you know, they would have seen that as like hostile behavior and they would

have whipped out a gun real quick.

00;49;38;28 - 00;50;00;12

Pascale Diverlus

Disgusting. I think this also, sorry too interrupt, I just, I think that this is also a really good time to

also illuminate the distinct experiences of madness and mad people particularly. I'm wondering if

you could help to kind of brought in folks is understanding of what madness is and particularly what

the experience is. As a black mad person or a racialized mad person.

00;50;00;15 - 00;50;08;03

Pascale Diverlus

What are those entail interacting with the health systems, mental health systems and just kind of

encountering life generally?00;50;08;05 - 00;50;34;23

Theodore Walker Robinson

I mean, in terms of madness, madness, mad. The word mad in general is, a term that people within

mental health community have sort of reclaimed for themselves. Mad has been this term that's

been sort of used as an insult or a way to sort of dismiss someone's behavior or as a way to sort of

pathologize someone for acting against what is considered societal norms, especially in Jamaican

culture.

00;50;34;23 - 00;51;06;16

Theodore Walker Robinson

You know, people will say you're all mad. Your made him you're mad. You know, so it's it's and

disability justice has sort of broken off into a branch of mad justice where folks who experience

mental health, challenges or folks who are in recovery have sort of taken that term back and are

kind of using it to disarm that loaded term, sort of reclaim that term, you know, reclaiming self

reclaiming, mind reclaiming, but and sort of seeing pride in that.

00;51;06;16 - 00;51;35;04

Theodore Walker Robinson

Like, just as there are differences in our bodies, one person's skin color may be different. Another

person's spinal curve may be different. Someone may be may have mobility challenges, another

person may have another type of mobility challenges. And just recognizing the beauty in the

difference that is us that that that we experience, and especially within black community. I mean,

we have such a.

00;51;35;06 - 00;52;10;10

Theodore Walker Robinson

Again, we we also have a very fraught history with mental health and also accepting certain kinds of

mental health help when because of our sordid history with systemic oppression and how how our,

our allegiance to, you know, masters in history has been aligned with madness or, you know, loyalty

or etc.. And so, you know, people, for example, in the times when Africans were enslaved, if they

were to run away, of course you want to run away and seek freedom for yourself.

00;52;10;10 - 00;52;30;01Theodore Walker Robinson

That would be considered mad. Like, you know, that would be considered, you know, some kind of

mental illness. Like, why would you want to leave the safety of a master's home? Right? You're said

here your, you know, you've got you got a roof over your head, you've got all these things, why would

you want to escape that. And so and we're kind of black people and rightfully so.

00;52;30;01 - 00;53;03;00

Theodore Walker Robinson

We've we have a little bit of distrust for the mental health system a lot. And we've sort of inherited

that over generations, and only because we've been gaslit for being that it's only like horribly gaslit

by by systemic oppression for wanting to escape the systemic oppression that affects us. And so,

you know, it's really been passed down through generations and a distrust for doctors, a distrust for

psychiatrists, because so many for so long medicine has been used to inflict pain on our bodies,

too.

00;53;03;00 - 00;53;43;29

Theodore Walker Robinson

We've been experimented on, we've been tortured in medical environments and pathologized with

these diagnoses that are entirely racist and have no grounding in biology whatsoever. And so, you

know, we really have a complicated history with being within the mental health system. And black

mental health as it is today is definitely a shifting ground, a shifting environment where as a

community, we're now really starting to understand as we approach certain levels of liberation

within ourselves and society, we're now starting to understand there's so much healing to do and

there's so much, so many resources that we can utilize in order to maintain our wellness.

00;53;43;29 - 00;54;10;04

Theodore Walker Robinson

And now suddenly, you know, kids are starting to get therapy and they're seeing a psychiatrist or

they're using medication as tools to maintain their wellness. But, you know, if you come from the

old country in the Caribbean, you know, maybe you're especially I'm second generation. I was born

in Canada. And so, you know, my my family, the older folks, you know, they still have that memory,

historic memory of having this distrust for the medical industrial complex.

00;54;10;04 - 00;54;38;21

Theodore Walker RobinsonAnd so a lot of us now who are healing and overcoming that are starting to embrace medicine as a

way of healing, but also encountering challenges when we come in contact with the medical

industrial complex. I mean, we're still very much and this is something that I've encountered being

on the board of directors for Black Mental Health Canada is that we are very much lacking in

culturally competent care for black folks, for folks especially who come from the African continent.

00;54;38;21 - 00;55;01;23

Theodore Walker Robinson

And so, you know, that means that there aren't enough medical professionals who look like, look

like us, who work in psychotherapy, who work in psychiatry. So, like the people who sit in front of us

to do talk therapy can't even relate to us. The fact that, you know, we have to do this extra work as

black folks when we're sitting in front of a white therapist, a lot of times we have to explain what

racial stress is.

00;55;01;23 - 00;55;21;27

Theodore Walker Robinson

We have to explain we meet these barriers, having to explain what our history is with the mental

health system, and also the racism that we experience in our daily lives, on top of the racism that

we experience within the medical system as well. It's just it's so complex and it's like, I mean, I

again, I'm a I am an agitator.

00;55;21;27 - 00;55;56;23

Theodore Walker Robinson

I will advocate for myself tooth and nail. But, you know, a lot of people are falling by the wayside and

not getting the care they deserve. And because they are not able to advocate in the in the same way

or because the medical industrial complex is still not caught up with the fact that we need more

mental health professionals who look like us, who have our experiences, who understand

racialization and its positionality and the social determinants of health that really all compound and

create, you know, us when we present with mental health challenges.

00;55;56;25 - 00;56;19;29

Rodney Diverlus

Absolutely. I think back to Haiti and, you know, Haiti is a country that's from the perspective of

Canada under resourced from this perspective and so doesn't have the sort of robust institutions

that Canada would have and how much and which in every communities and every family, youknow, people will have statements. They'll be like, well, you know, this person, that's just how they

are.

00;56;20;01 - 00;56;46;22

Rodney Diverlus

That's just it all. They'll, they'll, they'll say, oh yeah, that's how they are. But the sort of isolation, the

segregation and, go over there, you have to go to this institution and get yourself fixed before coming

here. It's just not paradigm. And so I, I it's, it's not the paradigm. So I find it really interesting to think

about just how we've over bureaucratized, putting people in a box and where we believe they

belong.

00;56;46;24 - 00;57;10;17

Rodney Diverlus

And so even the mental health sector, it's the definition of who needs help and what qualifies as

help and what qualifies as support is never actually comes from the communities themselves. It's

defined externally by a funding body, by an advocacy body, by an institution. And you just have to

figure out your way to check, check, mark your way through if you want any modicum of support.

00;57;10;19 - 00;57;30;09

Rodney Diverlus

And so it goes back to what you're saying around self-determination, self-determination and self-

determination. You take the lead from the people who actually experience it. And I feel like as

progressive, we say this again and again and again, and yet it feels almost impossible to adopt by

the institutions and the powers that be.

00;57;30;12 - 00;57;32;25

Theodore Walker Robinson

Yeah, absolutely.

00;57;32;27 - 00;57;45;05

Pascale Diverlus

No. Period. Now, the period at the end, period. Well, I just want to say thank you very, very much

Theo for sharing space with us here. Please let our listeners know where they can find you.00;57;45;08 - 00;57;58;03

Theodore Walker Robinson

Yeah, I'm mostly on Instagram just because I'm a millennial Luddite now. But, I'm on Instagram so

you can find me at Theodore Dot Walker Robinson on Instagram.

00;57;58;05 - 00;58;05;03

Pascale Diverlus

I love it. Lovely. Thank you so much for sharing space with us. Thank you for this very fruitful

conversation. Till next time.

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Theodore Walker Robinson

Thanks for having me.

00;58;06;24 - 00;58;09;27

Rodney Diverlus

Feels pleasure. Thanks to you.

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Pascale Diverlus

Speak, Unspoken is brought to you by Across Boundaries. With support from Ontario Health,

produced by Living Practices Consulting, hosted by Pascale Diverlus and Rodney Diverlus. Edited

and mixed by Angelyn Francis.